I'm begining to think all I'm good for is the random roll in the hay. =(
Can o' worms
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7:50 PM
Thursday, August 2, 2012
So I opened a can o' worms. I emailed someone back. You know the guy I slept with then the next day he told me he was going back to some other chick.
Not sure if its because I'm sick of being alone, or I feel the need for "pain" but I almost want to see him again. I KNOW I shouldn't but I'm sick of being alone.
Even in a crowd I'm alone. I can be with my best friends and still be alone.
Is it so wrong to want to be held, kissed, and told everything is OK even if its not????
I think I have hit rock bottom. I would never take my life, but it sounds pretty damn good right now.
I KNOW SUICIDE IS A PERMANENT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM. In my head there must be pain for tears to fall. I'm not in pain right now. So why am I crying???? I'm trying so hard right now not to do something to cause pain. Just let the tears fall. I keep holding back.
WHY wont I get the help I need so badly????
Not sure if its because I'm sick of being alone, or I feel the need for "pain" but I almost want to see him again. I KNOW I shouldn't but I'm sick of being alone.
Even in a crowd I'm alone. I can be with my best friends and still be alone.
Is it so wrong to want to be held, kissed, and told everything is OK even if its not????
I think I have hit rock bottom. I would never take my life, but it sounds pretty damn good right now.
I KNOW SUICIDE IS A PERMANENT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM. In my head there must be pain for tears to fall. I'm not in pain right now. So why am I crying???? I'm trying so hard right now not to do something to cause pain. Just let the tears fall. I keep holding back.
WHY wont I get the help I need so badly????
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