I was almost hit head on today on my way to work. I would have been ok if I had been hit.
FML
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9:54 AM
Friday, July 20, 2012
It feels like I can't stop crying. Its like its all I ever do anymore. I just want it to stop already. I want to be unbroken. "Normal" really. I don't think that's too much to ask.
I need to not be so scared to get help.
=(
Posted by
Suki
at
1:03 PM
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
I feel like I'm falling apart. In more then one way. I wanna be fixed.
I'm still really depressed. Still fighting the urge to hurt myself. The only reason being that there must be physical reasons for my tears and pain.
I'm still really depressed. Still fighting the urge to hurt myself. The only reason being that there must be physical reasons for my tears and pain.
I don't know anymore
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Suki
at
1:14 PM
Saturday, July 7, 2012
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm not happy. I don't know how to fix me. I wish I did.
I keep having dark dreams that wake me up in tears. I don't remember them. I think that's a good thing.
Right now it would be nice for someone to wrap me up in their arms and tell me at some point everything will be OK.
I keep having dark dreams that wake me up in tears. I don't remember them. I think that's a good thing.
Right now it would be nice for someone to wrap me up in their arms and tell me at some point everything will be OK.
Thanks life.
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Suki
at
6:23 PM
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Had a bad dream last night. Yet again I could see my own death.
I was in a bathroom. It was lit by candles. The tub was full of water and I crawled in. I had a hand full of some kind of pill. I took them all with a Mike's hard lemon-aide. I then took a razor blade and cut up my arm. A straight line from my wrist to my elbow. On both arms I did this. After doing that I sank in the water. All of me was under.
That's when I woke up. I hate these dreams. They always put me in a bad mood. Just as I was starting to get out of my funk. I have to have this fucking dream. Thanks life.
I would much rather dream of puppies and rainbows.
I was in a bathroom. It was lit by candles. The tub was full of water and I crawled in. I had a hand full of some kind of pill. I took them all with a Mike's hard lemon-aide. I then took a razor blade and cut up my arm. A straight line from my wrist to my elbow. On both arms I did this. After doing that I sank in the water. All of me was under.
That's when I woke up. I hate these dreams. They always put me in a bad mood. Just as I was starting to get out of my funk. I have to have this fucking dream. Thanks life.
I would much rather dream of puppies and rainbows.
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