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I hate being me at times. Okay most of the time. Maybe that's why I'm single. How can anyone like me if I don't??

And why do men think its okay to just stop talking to someone as a way of saying they don't like you or aren't interested in you? Just fucking tell me! That is way easier then being ignored. It's happening to me for the 4th time.

Do I not deserve to be told I'm not good enough?  Funny thing, I thought I was. I also was stupid and thought this guy was different. I was wrong. VERY wrong. Good thing I only wasted a month talking to this guy. So now I'm sitting here typing this with tears running down my face.

 I need some happy in my life. I'm done with all the shit.

Jumped the gun?

Yep. That's what I did. I jumped the gun. I overreacted to not hearing from someone. I heard from him and met him. Miss him now too.

Too good to be true......

That old saying If things seem too good to be true they probably are. Its very much my life as of right now.

For the last few weeks I have talked to what I thought was an amazing man. He was so sweet. So kind. Called me beautiful, sweety, sexy, and babe. I was starting to fall for him. He said the same thing about me. He has been out of town for work this whole time. Was supposed to come home this week. I haven't heard from him in over 24 hours. When he told me "I miss you babe, I really do"

So if you miss me why is when you get home I don't hear from you? No email. Phone call. NOTHING?!?!

I will admit I'm worried. What if something happened to him? Car accident? Stuck in a ditch on the side of the road? But the big part of me says he really didn't want me. He just said all that stuff. And that's the part that I hear the most. And I believe.


Fuck it all,