Why me?

Why do I let this happen? Why do I let a guy sweet talk me into bed and be all shocked when he finds someone else? Someday I will learn. I hope its soon.

I just want to scream. To cut my self so there is a reason for the tears. I'm being good and NOT eating everything in the house. NOT cutting. NOT hurting my self in anyway. Its hard. Not going to lie. Pain is the only reason someone should cry. Not because I got my feelings hurt. To me that's weakness. I'm stronger then that.

The "nice" guy I was talking to was also talking to someone else. Said I wasn't the fall back girl until I told him he sounded like my ex. Sorry for being honest.