Just feeling like shit and need to vent.

What the fuck is wrong with me? Why is it that people that don't have HALF my knowledge can get ahead at work? But yet I, who has been there for 8 years and I know both front end and some back room, am just stuck up front.

All I wanna do right now is cry, and hurt myself. If only I could scream and cry at work and not have everyone ask what's wrong.

Yeah.

So I'm feeling really blah today. I have also been feeling really alone in the world. Even with my best friends by my side doing things, I still feel alone. I hate it!

I fcked up BIG time.

So the other day I, due to me being purely stupid, ended a good friendship. I really wish I could take it back. I now know that I'm a complete idiot. I messed up. I don't really think he wanted to end the friendship. I have to remember that not all guys are like Tim. Just because he won't answer doesn't mean he doesn't like me or want to end our friendship. I just hope that someday soon we can maybe be friends again. I miss him bunches. He was one of the only people that gets me. I can talk to him and he doesn't judge. Yeah sure he lives far away and we can't hang out. Doesn't mean we can't be close. I could talk to him about everything and anything. I could tell when he was down and when he was happy.

You know who you are. Can we be friends again?

ho ho hum

For the last two days I have had early shifts. Of course the nights before I couldn't sleep. Tonight I want to sleep but I can't. Good thing I don't work too early tomorrow. GRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Here we are again.

Hello world!! How are you?? 
Its been about 6 years since I had a blog. So I thought I would try this again. I'm not sure where to start really. So this will be about all for now.